Introducere: Sapientia

            

    I used to view us Human beings as insignificant, like dusts in the wind or drops of water in a vast ocean, thinking why do even have to accustom ourselves with other people knowing nobody is gonna remember us at the end. But as if on queue I came across this interesting quote that goes along the lines of, ‘although were all gonna die someday, that’s more of a reason to live today’. Maybe that quote really woke me up to reality because here I am today starting all over again by introducing myself, I’m Sophia Lorraine Formoso Alasaas and this is simply me.

        On September 19 of the year 2005, born was the proud overthinker, me, named by my mother's favorite artist, Sophia Loren. I guess you are asking, why am I an overthinker? Probably because of my struggle to find a hobby to stick with, to find a path I want to take for the rest of my life, and also to find myself. The anxiety of being aware that people are in the process of plotting their own story, with them as the main character. And here's me fearful of what's about to happen, busy overthinking exaggerated scenarios, busy analyzing how to run away from problems I once ran away from, thinking why am I being left out, and how to bring back that drive that once kept me going. At that time it felt like I was numb, that everyday was the same, boring. People often says that "no one knows you better than yourself", but I beg to say the opposite. Surrounding myself with people who cares about me made me realize this. From my insecurities to my interests they know it all. As I drown within my thoughts, they helped me from drowning little by little. Through them I regained my passion. One thing that also helped me regain my passion was the manga titled "Blue Period". The plot revolves around a high schooler who lives for others, but as he discovers the beauty of art he starts to find his own passion, which is somewhat relatable to me. But in amidst of everything I have said, I want to thank God for never giving up on me, being there through the darkest of times when He was the only one I could talk to. The nights when I cried myself to sleep, to all my rants, You listened all throughout and also gave me the strength to keep moving forward. Although some people would disagree with me saying "to see is to believe", but for me "to believe is to see" I believed and I saw His mercy, I saw His grace,  I saw His love.

                

        Up to this day, I still wonder if I can someday be worthy of my name, Sophia that stands for wisdom, which is latin for Sapientia. Maybe one day, I can reach for it, then reach for my own universe with the help of everyone. Live your life like riding your own wave, there may be ups and downs along the ride but that's what makes it exciting.          

                

Citation: "to see is to believe" (John 20:29)